I have a confession to make. It has to do with WHY I FINALLY realized I NEEDED to pursue blogging, despite all of the numerous times I was told, in the past, that I needed to start a blog. But before I confess, let me ask you a question – do you believe in the power of bravery? If not, then you might want to consider drumming up just enough courage to do ‘that thing” you’ve always wanted to start doing or even just taking a chance on something you never thought you could accomplish. You never know the powers you’ll unlock within yourself.
Confession: Dressing up, getting my “Jenatay on” gives me POWERS. No seriously it does!
By forcing myself to be brave through this blog, it’s giving me my freedom and self confidence back. This might sound a bit odd or cliché but let me explain. I’ve always seen/used style as a form of expression. Its been a way to define myself and my spicy, sassy attitude. I’m sure you’ve heard the expression “Freedom of expressing yourself through your wardrobe”. Yes, I’ve always been free. That was…until I turned 30. I hit a wall. And boy I hit it hard. It was like all of a sudden I was questioning my wardrobe choices, caring about what others would think (the death of style and self identity), and the worst of all – doubting myself, my life choices, and where I was at in life. I’m 31 now, about to turn 32 this January, and let me tell you these past 2 years have been complete torture. I feel like I lost myself and it’s because I had. I wasn’t the same sassy “Caliente Mrs. Puente” I was known for in my 20s. The pressures, expectations, and anxieties of turning the dreaded 3-0 had completely paralyzed me. But I am here to tell YOU turning 30 (or any age for that matter) does not mean it’s the end of your “glory days”! 30 is the new 20! Damn it!
And it wasn’t until the beginning of this year when I decided I needed to do something about it. I needed to feel good about myself again. So I asked myself – what else made me happy other than my husband and daughter? And it clicked. The same thing I was once so passionate about and NOW so afraid of, was the exact thing I need to pursue to get out of this rut. But how was I going to change my mindset? (light bulb moment) By forcing myself to finally pursue something I had always put off – BLOGGING. Of course before finalizing my decision, millions of doubtful thoughts raced through my head, such as “What if I look like a fool putting myself out there like that, especially because of my occupation”, “How do I even start?”, “I don’t have time and won’t be able to keep up with it”, etc. And this is when I forced myself to be BRAVE. I set all of those doubts aside and made time, reminding myself who I was doing this for – ME. Not because I think I’ll become this “famous blogger”. Not for attention or to show off (hell no) and not for the vanity of it. But for me, Jennifer Puente. My blog is going to be my outlet, my place where I can be myself again. Believe me, it took every ounce of bravery to come out and announce my decision. It still takes every ounce of bravery every time I post a new blog post or share a “modeling” picture (I only say that because my mother made that reference when I showed her my blog). I’ve made up my mind, I would rather look like a fool and realize a goal of mine, then regret never going for it.
I must say, forcing myself to be brave and take on this new adventure has been quite liberating. It’s done just what I intended it to do. But most importantly, it’s made me realize the power of taking a leap and putting yourself, your goals, or desires first. And it just so happens that I chose my sassiest look to pair with this topic.
I could go on and on about this! TRUST ME. But, I will leave you with this final note: YOU have the power. The power to make yourself happy. You just need to identify that decision, action, or goal that will lead you down the path of living the happy life you were meant to live and that will allow you to look in the mirror everyday and love who you see. All you need to be is BRAVE.
Thank you so much for reading this and I hope, by putting myself out here and sharing my story, it will inspire you to be brave with your life and go after what you want. Most importantly, not let anything or anyone, not even a semi midlife crisis, get in the way of your happiness.
Motto For This Look: “If it’s still in your mind, it’s worth taking a risk.”
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Blazer Cape: NASTY GAL
Pants: Similar HM Pant